Have you ever asked yourself what your greatest fear a photographer is?
Last week I took a survey to see what photographers dread the most and many had valid fears such as; equipment malfunction during a job, or equipment being stolen, and not making enough money.
We have all faced the fears listed above and overcame them and that’s why we can share those experiences but there has to be something deeper that will just shut us down and make us put our camera away forever.
My greatest fear is the image of success without feeling successful.
It tears me apart that people look up to me and yet I can’t stand to see my own reflection. This is me being completely honest with the photography community. Now I am proud of the success I have had as a photographer but during those successes I was actually there, but today I feel my image is not a true reflection of my “success” and that I am living on the image of who Ben Briones once was. The photographer in me has reached a plato. The businessman in me has lost count of all the numbers. To my clients I look busy and to my family and friends I’ve made it but honestly I’m just floating without paddling.
Reversing the fear and moving forward and doing work!
Today I woke up wanting to work, wanting to serve and being thankful for the life my God has given me. I may still be disorganized but I am acknowledging it. I may still be behind on work but I am rushing to catch up. Slowly I am regaining momentum and motivating myself to accomplish more than the day before. Last year I chose to be more transparent with my business through this blog and today I let you see directly into my world and my unspoken fear as a photographer. Now it’s time to work even harder than before.
The photographer lifestyle shouldn't revolve around your image but the work you put in to making that picture.